I’m Having a Crisis of Faith / Spiritual Awakening

I’ve been there—the moment where you feel like everything you thought you knew is unraveling, and it feels like a crisis.

But what if this isn’t a breakdown but a break through?

What if this is God calling you out of inauthenticity and into freedom?

The toxic beliefs, the perfectionism, and the shame-based religious mindsets and theology—that’s not Him. This is the point where you get to meet God as He truly is, not as you were taught to see Him. Here are the shifts that radically transformed my faith, and they’re the same shifts that help my clients, too.


SHIFT #1: Untangling from Toxic Conditioning

I had to go through a process of religious deconditioning. It was essential to break free from the codependent, perfectionistic, people-pleasing faith I’d been taught. This was about untangling from the shame and obligation that came from toxic religious beliefs, so I could finally be my real, raw, honest self with God.


SHIFT #2: Discovering God Outside of Toxic Religious Christianity

Rediscovering God meant releasing the old teachings that labeled self-care as selfish or made me feel like I could never measure up. In stepping outside of those confines, I found a God who invites us to flourish, not burn out.


SHIFT #3: Healing from the Impact of My Faith History

My complex history with toxic religious Christianity deeply impacted how I viewed God. I struggled to feel safe with Him because of the religious abuse, divorce, smear campaigns, and other painful experiences that shaped me. It’s no wonder that trust felt nearly impossible. Healing meant allowing all of me to come before God—raw, real, and loved just as I am.


SHIFT #4: Recognizing My Projections on God Due to Past Trauma

My relationship with my earthly dad influenced how I viewed God’s nature and character. Trauma in our past relationships, especially with men, can create projections and blind spots when it comes to God. It took intentional healing to stop seeing God through the distorted lens of my past. Experiencing Him as a loving Father was a breakthrough in seeing His true nature.


SHIFT #5: Realizing It’s Possible to Have a Healthy, Nourishing Relationship with God

I didn’t believe it at first, but it is possible to have a close, nourishing relationship with God that isn’t about control or losing yourself. He isn’t asking you to disappear; He’s inviting you to be fully you. God wants a relationship where you don’t have to fit into someone else’s version of faith—you get to bring your true self to the table.


So, if you’re in the midst of a crisis of faith, take heart. God is calling you out of shame and control, out of toxic mindsets, and into freedom, authenticity, and deep connection with Him. This is the kind of faith that sustains and nourishes every part of your life, from your relationships to your purpose.

You don’t have to walk this path alone. If you’re ready to break free and step into an honest, soul-nourishing faith, click the link in my bio to learn more about my journey and how I help others do the same.

In my mastermind: Free To Be You, I personally walk my high-achieving female clients through to the freedom to be both untangled from toxic religious experiences and conditioning while being fully themselves with God.

Click below to explore and always feel free to reach out on social media if you have questions.

LS x

You don’t need to burn it all down.

You don’t need to pause or close down and walk away from everything you’ve built in order to create a more aligned business.

I see you. I know it feels misaligned. I know you feel exhausted. I know you may even feel bored or boxed-in. But you don’t need to pause, shut everything down (your business, marketing etc) and lose the traction you’ve already built. You can LEVERAGE what you’ve already built to do more of the work that you were born for.

The exhaustion, bored and boxed-in feelings aren’t there because of your business. Your business is just a symptom of deeper misalignment going on for you internally..

This time, instead of just investing and working on your business and marketing..

You are being called to the depths. This is why everything feels off.

When we feel exhausted and like we are spinning our wheels because we are trying to resolve our internal misalignment with external action.. We can make some pretty rash decisions. We just want the exhaustion and wheel-spinning feelings to STOP. I have done this before, there is absolutely no shame here..

But if I could go back in time I would wisely tell myself to slow down and to do the deeper internal work to realign what I am doing to who I deeply am.

You can’t energetically go BACK because you can’t stomach it anymore.. Because you have OUTGROWN who you used to be, how you feel you *had* to be. But you also can’t energetically go FORWARD because you lack the clarity to do so.

It’s time to get the CLARITY that you need. 

Most of my clients in this space are tweaks away from everything clicking.. and if they didn’t find me they would’ve walked away from 60-100k per month businesses.

And I know for you it’s not about the money..

But a smart business owner leverages what she has already built to birth something even more potent.

You already know that this time you must dive deeper than you’ve ever known..

You must peel back the layers of religious, familial and societal conditioning, expectations and how things are “normally” done to be free to be fully you

And carve out your unique space in the world – the most meaningful, soul-driven work yet.

It’s just a matter of finding the right fit –

.. holistic guidance that integrates the business with the spiritual

.. someone who will hear you, really hear you

.. and see you in all of your magic, brilliance and depths, to see behind the masks we all wear to guide you back to the brilliance of who God designed you to be..

So that you can show up fully and unapologetically you.

This is about transformation so deep it feels like a spiritual awakening..

And then realigning your business and calling from this newly revealed space. (Not the other way around)

It’s about refining what you already deeply know

Seeing through and shattering the perceived ceilings and limitations

And articulating who you already are.

For when it’s YOUR time:

LS x

You’re not burnt out.

You’re not burnt out, you’re just abandoning yourself (again).

Before you book that 10k+ holiday, let me tell you something. (LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING!)

When most of my clients come to me, they think they’re burnt out. They went on the big holiday, had weeks off, felt better… then came back to life as they knew it.

Instead of being lit-up, excited, on-mission.. they feel excited for a bit but then they’re back to the same old patterns and energy drains that are sucking the life-force from them.

It turns out, they’re not burnt out at all. It’s exhaustion from self-abandonment. Let me explain.

They’re exhausted because they haven’t IDENTIFIED & INTEGRATED the parts of their lives and business that feel inauthentic.

These parts are linked to outdated identities and beliefs from conditioning and expectations—here are some examples:

Religious Conditioning:

  • My purpose is to help others or “be Jesus to people” (even if it burns me out)
  • My needs come second; I find all my fulfilment in helping others (hello codependence)
  • The Self is “all bad”; my feelings & desires can’t be trusted
  • Women should be silent & submissive

Familial Conditioning:

  • I have to work hard to earn everything, to please my parent/s
  • I must protect the family image & stay in line
  • I can’t be different from my family

Societal Conditioning:

  • Women must do everything for everyone
  • Women should be young, flawless, perfect
  • If I cook for my husband, I’m “weak”; if I run a business, I’m an “independent woman who hates authority”

This scratches the surface of what I’ve seen in high-achieving women over 1.5 decades, helping them become unapologetically themselves.

Conditioning like this leads to subconscious Self-Abandonment—perfectionism, people-pleasing, feeling disconnected from yourself and God.

It feels like burnout because your system is putting the handbrake on to stop you from moving where you don’t actually want to go.

If you’re done escaping, and ready to invest in YOU (not just your business and marketing—because I see you, high achievers), and do the deeper work to unlock internal transformation that frees you to be YOU—in your business, brand, life, relationships, and connection to God—what’s coming NEXT is FOR YOU.

For when it’s YOUR time:

LS x

Feel Distant From God? Here’s why:

This is important work. The most important work. Because in view of this, your whole world is realigned, your life is reimagined..

Limitations that you were experiencing because of perfectionism, people pleasing and pretzelling yourself begin to fade away to make space for possibility and potential.

You stop abandoning yourself because you understand it’s not a requirement to receive his abundant love for you.

Where there is guilt, anxiety and shame they are replaced by connection, safety and peace.

Where there is distance, intimacy is restored – a closeness with your Heavenly Father – a safe place you can run, you can hide, you experience him as your sanctuary; your “dwelling place”.. no matter what is rumbling around in your world.

Where there is proving energy and inadequacy, there is wholeness and completeness in love.

No longer are you weighed down by exhaustion from trying to work it all out, have all the answers, or working hard just to reach that end goal.. always chasing the carrot dangling in front of you..

Suddenly you KNOW that In Him, you are enough. You are His. And from this foundation of wholeness and fulfilment, you can co-create incredible impact with Him.

That distance you feel? He is right there next to you waiting for you to reach out and take his hand and let him lead you into your amazing next 🤍✨

For when it’s YOUR time:

LS x

Projection – The Silent Relationship Killer

Projection is a killer of relationships 💀

The problem is, most times we aren’t self aware enough to actually catch ourselves doing it..

All we know is that we feel hurt, angry, frustrated, triggered, abandoned in that relationship.

And that we are behaving in ways that aren’t who we really are.. performing, pretzeling ourselves, proving ourselves..

We are often then internally critical of that behaviour (hello loud inner critic)

And can quickly feel depleted of our normally strong and vibrant life force energy, leaving us feeling drained and slowing our impact down significantly.

I bring you good news!

I know none of this is WHO YOU ARE

And so what we need to do is help you to SEE CLEARLY what is and isn’t the real you..

Untangle from the distorted teachings that have painted God differently than who he is

Decondition from past experiences that shape our view of God himself and his unchanging character of goodness and love towards you..

Unhook your father wounds from your view of God

So that you stop projecting and start SEEING CLEARLY who he is, how much he loves you and wants to be close to you too.

You don’t have to live life feeling like God is distant

You get to live life feeling SAFE, protected, loved and seen in your magic, your soul fulfilled

And from this place of fullness and wholeness go out into the world to confidently co-create magic and impact with Him.

For when it’s YOUR time:

LS x

Prayer or Manifestation?

Controversial question: Prayer or Manifestation? 👇

Before you read my below comment, you need to know this about me.

I don’t and won’t give you the “answers”..

Because it’s NOT ABOUT ME.

This is about your journey, your path, your wrestle..

This doesn’t mean that I don’t have my own opinions

But it does mean that there is no judgement, no shame in the wrestle

And it means that I hold space for you.

Because we need safe spaces to wrestle out spiritual concepts and clarify our view of who God is.. His identity, because in doing so it clarifies our own.

Do I provide guidance, mostly in the form of questions – absolutely? You’ll see a perfect example of this below.

In all things, I want to help you to SEE more clearly.. through the biases, lenses, distortions and conditioning..

Because when you can see more clearly you are infinitely more powerful, focused, impactful.. FREE.

During COVID I remember working with a client and she was discussing her decision around the you-know-what. Her journey was not about my stance.. I facilitated the wrestle and she made her decision.. and that was it. No judgement, just space held.

My job is to be there to facilitate and guide your wrestle – to authenticity, to truth, to awareness and CLARITY of what’s really truly rumbling around in your heart so you can be closer to yourself, closer to God and infinitely more impactful from His rest and peace.

LS x

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“Controversial question: Prayer or Manifestation? What’s your opinion on how these play together?” 👇

What I have found is that there is sometimes a deeper unspoken question underneath questions and contrasts like these..

For example –

“Can we commune with God while working towards the things that we desire?”

“Can I have both connection to God + the things that I desire?”

Just imagine a little girl whose dad is distant/absent (either physically or emotionally), and he sends her gifts and that is how she learned to receive love..

She receives the gifts but she doesn’t receive the emotional closeness. So she perceives that these two things aren’t possible for her to have together. It becomes an either/or situation. It might not feel safe for her to have both.

Some other things that spring to mind in the same vein –

So often prayer to God can bring up the idea that I am powerless and he has all the power. So deeper questions are – can I pray without being/feeling powerless? Does God require me to be powerless and in waiting energy to commune with him? (No)

What is it that truly satisfies the human soul? For animals go after what they desire, and we are infinitely more valuable and powerful than they.. 🤍

Credit: inspired by the amazing thread by Fabi Paolini-Benavides

For when it’s YOUR time:

LS x

Mindset vs Inner Work

Strategy + mindset = good

Strategy + inner work = extraordinary

You can only get so far with positive thinking and reframes. These are great, but the true trajectory shifts after you’ve reached “good” that get you to “extraordinary” go much deeper than that..

Because it’s not about just changing the way you *think* about something. It’s about changing the way you *be* around that something.

Energetically this is embodiment.. not about constantly working hard to shift. Big difference. Huge. Less energy expenditure, more focus, less wobbles.

In my world we do this through a process called Subconscious Sovereignty™ in which we isolate the real issue instead of glossing over it with positivity or working harder, we uncover and address the root cause of the real issue.. with God.

And you walk away feeling more empowered, liberated and centred.

Being a highly fulfilled, grounded and unshakeable leader comes from addressing the vulnerabilities that exist in us that give us the wobbles sometimes, it comes from knowing our identity and being completely solid in it (daughter of the king vibes), and it comes from making God your HOME.. your safe place.. the unshakeable rock that never changes – even though everything in our world may do.

Those who have learned to swim in their own depths aren’t rocked when others are.

Maybe it’s time to upgrade your inner world to align with the power God has given you🔥

For when it’s YOUR time:

LS x

Spiritual Hunger

Here’s what you need to know about Spiritual Hunger:

We all have it. And we all work to satiate it in different ways..

Once I learned this I stopped judging people for HOW they chose to satiate it. We have all turned to different things to satisfy us. For me it was relationships, men, avoidance.. and so much more.

Shaming ourselves doesn’t help anything..

But what I found is that God wanted to restore me back to wholeness in and with him – allowing his love and his truths to permeate my heart and soul so that there was less to no drive to chase and prove myself and abandon who I really was and what I really needed and wanted in order to get a quick fix.. like eating McDonalds.

And what I found is zero shaming and criticism for the way I was trying to feel better, to heal, to cope..

And just one big set of open arms, ready to coat my inner world with his goodness and love for me.

My love, you dont need to go through this world alone, lost, existing, coping in any area, ever again.

He’s waiting to be received by you so he can restore you to the wholeness you were born for ✨

For when it’s YOUR time:

LS x

God = Shame & Perfectionism?

When we are taught God through the lens of shame and perfectionism; we often find ourselves proving ourselves; hiding who we really are, doubling down on working hard to always perform, achieve and reach the mark.

When we finally know God as Abba “Papa”, we can run to him, even in our mistakes and imperfections.. and still find sanctuary, rest, wholeness, restoration and home.

Perhaps it’s time to decondition from distorted religious teachings and upgrade your view of God so you can see and experience him for who He is. ✨🤍

For when it’s YOUR time:

LS x

How can you own your value when you feel fundamentally unworthy?

There were two big places in my life that toxic teachings around me being fundamentally unworthy and inherently not good really showed up and made me begin to question what I had been taught:

1. My romantic relationship/s: how can I equally say I’m “worthy of love” AND believe I’m fundamentally unworthy?

2. In business when it came to owning my value and charging appropriately: how can I equally own my value AND believe I’m a piece of trash God can’t even love or look at without his Jesus glasses?!

So it became a big focus for me, an internal wrestle that I took with God and away from the unhealthy environments to uncover HIS truth.. not somebody else’s biased perspective.

And I discovered so much; about my humanity, about the way the world is, about what sin is, and about my actual worth in the sight of God..

But it wasn’t enough to have different head knowledge… it had to sink DEEPER into my spirit to actually begin making a difference

Because these teachings and experiences I had absorbed that created this core belief were already subconscious programs rattling around in me..

.. which meant that despite TRYING HARDER to operate as a person who believed I had immeasurable worth didnt work (like an elastic band around my waist, always pinging me back to unworthiness)

.. which meant just BELIEVING MORE in myself and my value didn’t work (because I was trying to convince myself of something I didn’t actually believe)

.. which meant I was making decisions, on autopilot, around this unworthiness.

And maybe you can relate to this same frustration?

What you need is the ability to shift how you see yourself at a subconscious level..

To untangle from the parts of you that were developed in response to unhealthy teachings on self

To love on those parts of you and honour them

And to lead them into the truth of who you are, who God created you to be..

So you can start seeing yourself in a completely different light which leads to moving in life and biz from WHOLENESS

Which means you no longer need patterns of proving, perfection and people pleasing – you no longer feel you have to FIGHT for what is already yours.

For when it’s YOUR time:

LS x