Where Was God?

Where was God when my ex was punching walls?
Where was God when nobody believed me?
Where was God when I was in so much pain I could barely function?

After many agonising years of wrestle.. years ago it finally landed in my heart that He had never left me. That he had been right by my side the whole way through.

It wasn’t easy. In fact it had been absolutely agonising for me to swallow..

Because if God was real and He didn’t abandon me.. then wasn’t he a neglectful father who allowed bad thing to happen to me? Why would a loving God do that?

And I’m sure if you’ve been through any amount of poop in life you’ll know that feeling..

Maybe even growing up learning that God is big and strong and will come through for me

He can do anything
>> Except for me? He didn’t.

He allowed the pain, the fear, the suffering
He allowed the CPTSD, the panic attacks, the punched walls..
It was incredibly painful. 

And what did it mean about me?

Like maybe there was something wrong with ME that he didn’t want to come through?
Maybe I had done something wrong and failed to be the perfect Good Christian Girl?
Maybe I had missed something, something big?

So much emotional and spiritual torment trying to wrestle with who I was taught God was and who I had experienced him to be.

And I felt so incredibly alone in it until I found the right guidance.

But it was so hard to even articulate in my own head; let alone verbalise to anyone else.

The truth was that I needed a perspective shift; because the lenses that I had viewed life, God.. even myself through had been a dodgy pair of hand-me-down glasses given to me from distorted religious teachings and unhealthy religious and familial environments.

I needed balance, I needed nuance, I needed a perspective shift… a purge and reset of all I had absorbed.

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You Saw Through The Religious Facade. What Now?

It is you who’ve seen through the religious facade of the generations before you and it is you who will walk and lead others to a more authentic faith with Him.

Don’t let your frustration and anger with the facade derail you from the destiny he is walking you to.

While they point their fingers at your deconstruction, you see the others pointing back at them.
The plank and the speck.
The hypocrisy.
The hard-no you feel in your body.

I believe God has given so many in our generation have the gift of sight; just don’t let your frustration around what you see become your own blind spot to who He is.

He is shaking up the religious facade, the perfectionism, the toxic conditioning through you.

Let it be the catalyst to become the transformational generation we were born to be, creating ripples of impact with and through and for Him.

He is calling you closer and deeper, out of the false teaching and into His army of light.

He is waiting with open arms.

When Expectations Hurt

The hard lesson I learned is this:

Sometimes we wound ourselves because of the expectations we have of others & God that they didn’t meet.

Others aren’t obligated to meet our expectations any more than we are obligated to meet their expectations.

For example: I was shocked when I got married and it was so toxic. Yes there were red flags.

But I thought God would always protect me, always come through for me.. and he didn’t in the way that I expected.

It was heart breaking and I felt so abandoned.

This led to a huge crisis of faith and I hated God for not giving me what I thought I had earned (through working so hard in toxic Christian environments and being a Good Christian Girl).

The truth of it was, I had wounded myself because I was carrying expectations and misunderstandings from distorted teachings.

I was projecting a truth onto God that wasn’t reality, and I got burned.

When we think things are going to go a certain way, we are attempting to gain peace from an ideal projected future, moving people and God like chess pieces to align to that projected future.

It just doesn’t work. I tried it 😅

Ready to go deeper? I love your ability to process and introspect!

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Sometimes this is how we’ve learned to feel like we are in control. To have expectations and to project those expectations onto others in the hopes that they’ll meet those expectations.

Recognising it’s how we control is a hard lesson, but a worthy one.

When we do the deeper work we learn exactly WHY we are doing it so that we can detach from those behaviours. There’s a deeper reason why you need to stay in control.

Deeper: God isn’t and never has been obligated to meet my expectations any more than I am obligated to meet the expectations of others.

Oooosh. Doesn’t it hit hard?


1. We are kind and loving to ourselves. Forgiving ourselves once we have this new awareness. No self beat up, only change 🤍

2. We take a deep dive into why it is that we are showing up in this way, and get to the heart of it – the root.. so that we can gently remove it

3. We replace the root with a healthy plant, something that will nourish us deeply, so that we no longer crave to have that control. We feel safer, we feel freer, we feel more alive.

4. We show up in the world differently – less anxious, less controlling, and others feel it. They want to be around us because we have no expectations of them (yes we have standards but that is a whole different topic).

We start attracting a new and different type of person in our world; those who don’t expect perfection, those who love without strings, those who value us..

And our whole life + business + relationships transforms from the inside —-> out..

Unfolding in the most beautiful way. 

The deeper work can feel daunting, but when we step into the light for healing and we find nothing but gentleness and love, instead of the brokenness and shame we expect, we are transformed and we are free.