When I was a legalistic Christian I could not even begin to imagine life without all the “rules”.
I thought those who didn’t adhere strictly to the rules were rebellious, bad, wrong.
I was constantly anxious about what God thought about me
About how he’d react, and how he’d punish me if I made a mistake
I walked on eggshells to protect his (seemingly) fragile male ego
Always micro analysing all of my actions
Obsessed about whether something was “right” vs “wrong”
Always wanting to be “good” not “bad”
And constantly scared that I was disappointing God, letting him down, and not performing “good enough” to make him pleased with me.
I didn’t realise that I was a walking fear bomb (which is like a glitter bomb but not nearly as sparkly and fun).
With a HIGHLY INACCURATE view of both myself AND God himself.
And today, I find many Christians who believe in grace and Jesus and all things “God is good” walk in these exact same feelings and fears today – often without any awareness that these feelings are rumbling around in them
Creating a hyper-vigilance that can’t be turned off
And that is sometimes celebrated and taught in churches today.
Here’s what had to change for me:
I’m going to share with you how to see yourself and God more accurately..
Without man-made Doctrines Of Fear clouding your vision..
Because by now after reading this, if you’ve gotten this far, you’ve related to a lot of what I’ve said..
Perhaps articulating something you hadn’t been able to put your finger on.
Well, my friend – Jesus is holding out to you a brand new level of freedom to tap into..
The question is – will you relinquish control, man-made doctrines long enough to not just hear it, but absorb it and live differently because of it?
Over my relationship with God, and lots of correction of my SIGHT in communion with Him, he taught me about himself.
About his heart, as a father.
That he wants what is BEST for me.
(Feel into that)
The God who created you wants His best for you!
This becomes then more about the ABUNDANCE of what God holds out FOR you, than it is about the LIMITATION of what he’s asking you to avoid (for your own good)
He’s saying “Sunshine sparkle, don’t go there, it won’t be good for you and I want and have soooooo much more for you!”
It’s not about the limitation and restriction
It’s about how much he loves you and has for you
It’s not about asking “is this right or wrong?” “How close can I get to the line?” “Am I good or bad?”
It IS about asking – “Is this God’s best FOR ME?”
It’s about aligning with the will and heart of God – instead of being scared to disappoint or upset him.
This changes the energy of the relationship
from daughter who walks on eggshells, constantly checking herself and worried about God’s reaction, worrying about disappointing Him – to one of life partnership with the Father.
Co-creating, together, from that relationship.
And no longer about restriction and limitation, but instead enjoying abundance.
I’ve learned that what God holds out in his hand FOR ME, is always far better than the things he tells me to avoid – or even better than I could dream and envision for myself!
This is how you live life with God, without religion, without the “rules” and limitations – communing, receiving love, being delighted in, being guided
And walking in alignment to God’s best.
I promise when you do this WITH God, you’ll walk in so much more self-worth, significance and self-respect
And you’ll make ripples of impact just from showing up in the world while communing with the God who wants more for you.
LS x
