Category: Spiritual Awakening With Jesus

Welcome to today’s post where I will surely offend someone lol

I’ve been thinking lately, watching how many Christian (and spiritual people) operate online – and wanted to share what I see..

There are different stages of spiritual thinking and my posts are working to open you up to a higher perspective than the one you already have and maintain. 

That may be why they sometimes rub you the wrong way.. or create an uncomfortable feeling like “is she a heretic” but like you also can’t look away lol, or an unsettled feeling that leads to the impulse to correct vs inviting curiosity. 

Sometimes we think this is spiritual discernment, but it’s just that we have not matured in our perspective..

Let me explain.

It’s not that I technically disagree with you – you are just at level 1 or 2, and not yet seeing more nuance that’s available. 

Stage 1

Stage 1 thinking is often just regurgitated from church and popular teachers. It proves you’re a good Listener and a good parrot. It’s the “right” answer, and you’re often focused on being right. And correcting people back to this supposed “rightness”.

It’s about finding emotional safety in correctness instead of Christ himself alone.

Many Christians are still here swimming in the kiddie pool, with their fluro orange floaties on, while on social media in the comments section. This is why it’s not pretty.

So many Christians never leave this level. They are satisfied being fed by church regurgitated info like a baby bird because it means they never need to go and find or digest food on their own. They never mature. This is often – not always – the spirit of religion. 

When we are first introduced to Jesus we do alot of learning from regurgitation. But we were never designed to stay there, because regurgitation is not discipleship. It’s knowledge.

(I’m not saying church is wrong/bad)

Stage 2

Stage 2 thinking is a little more nuanced.

 It sees that many Christian environments have missed important nuance about things like our identity in Christ (and not in people or identities like the Good Christian Girl), what being made in the image of God really means, how powerful we are etc. But it is still embedded somewhat in being right and correct, and parroting answers like a good girl. 

Still trying to find emotional safety in correctness,  still unable to sit in nuance, unknowns, differences.

It is learning that discipleship is not just about knowledge and awareness – how many Bible verses I can quote, how many arguments I can “win” because of how smart I am in biblical knowledge.

Stage 3 + Beyond

Stage 3 + beyond can hold more nuance. 

It is an ego that is not influenced by the spirit of religion anymore. 

When needing to be a good parrot, right, correct fades away.. we not only save a lot time and energy – but we just stay connected to the vine, learning and operating from humility and simplicity.

It’s sitting at the feet of Jesus in humility – not in ego. 

We are then left with an identity that can really begin to wrestle with God and others – with less ego – in bigger levels of unknowns, uncertainty and nuance in topics we previously fully believed were black and white. 

We begin to listen more to Holy Spirit – 

Asking him for more details, truths, deeper understanding – not just to KNOW but to be truly TRANSFORMED by the **actual ** renewing of our minds 

We can see and hold nuance with less reactivity to those who are different..

Maybe even thinking there might be an ounce of gold I can glean here, something God might be trying to show me here.. 

We approach with curiosity and “mulling it over” deeply – to see what is initially unseen – before jumping to correct. 

Here we no longer abandon ourselves – because we know that we don’t have to perform correctness to be deeply seen, known, loved and held by God (or others) 

No longer performing the identity of the one who has all the answers, the Good Christian Girl, the smart one, the one who is always right, the one who is the best student, the one who impresses her pastor leaders or others at church, the one who withholds her real opinions thoughts feelings.. even doubts and silences her voice.

Here we walk in more freedom and energy because our ego needs to follow every impulse it feels (often to correct others to our level 1 view). 

Here we are actually PLIABLE. Not in a gullible way, but in a God-way. We are finally in a place where we can receive from him. 

We understand everyone is on their own journey, that I am not the saviour of the world, and that walking with God means tapping into a VASTNESS of wisdom so expansive that it reaches far beyond what I’ve always parroted, and that I always have a lot to learn. 

This is not about being BETTER but they are the staes of spiritual AND emotional maturity that comes from true deep identity work that releases you from an ego still heavily influenced by the spirit of religion – even if you never even knew that it was operating.

You’re over there trying to be right. 

I’m over here trying to raise your level of thinking. I do not post to be right, I post to open you to new perspectives for growth.

We are not the same.

This is why I won’t agree or often engage with your attempted corrective comments. Not because I need to be right – though this is my platform and I am responsible for its stewardship – but I do not bow the knee to spirits other than the Holy Spirit, or to those operating from a perspective that does not see nuance where I see an immense multicoloured rainbow.

May this expand you, excite you, and drive you to  a depth of not just more knowledge and “awareness”, but a depth in your relationship with God you never knew possible.

LS x

Can we talk about Spiritual People-Pleasing?

Because people-pleasing itself is a pattern.

Self-abandonment is a pattern..

And it’s a pattern that many of us picked up at an early age – learning that we weren’t free to be fully ourselves, that we had to twist, and force and manoeuvre our way to receiving the love, belonging and acceptance we desperately craved.

And here’s the thing about Spiritual People-Pleasing:

Having a grounded, honest, authentic relationship with God has been one of the most nourishing and healing aspects of my spiritual awakening..

Especially after being so deeply enmeshed in religious communities and familial relationships where I felt that in order to receive love, connection, belonging, I had to abandon myself – by performing, being perfect, overworking, proving my value by serving, putting on a happy shiny facade, pretzeling myself to fit a certain “Good Christian Girl” or “good Christian Woman” or “perfect daughter” mould that was expected of me..

Often expected of me in the name of God, as if this behaviour was somehow what made God happy with me.

So when I circled back to relationship with God after going through a whole lot of life, trauma, challenge; it made so much sense that I’d be projecting this all onto God – anxious and anticipating what I thought he desires me to be.

Stepping back into old patterns of performing for him, pretzeling myself and essentially stepping into a FAWN RESPONSE with the king of the universe (yes it was as messed up as it sounds).

When all I really had to do was learn to be with him – securely attached – in the present moment.

With nothing to hide, nothing to prove and nothing to try to be, I can bathe in his goodness, deeply connect to his heart and find a peaceful sanctuary I’d only ever dreamed of.

It might sound complicated; but it’s actually quite simple. He loves you, wants relationship with you, and.. if you let him.. he’ll hold your hand and guide you into all healing and truth so that you are FREE to be fully you, with Him in the way that you are designed.

This is The Divine Reset.

2024 was the year this unlikely prophesy started to come true for me..

I heard it in a podcast episode I was randomly listening to in 2020.

It was strange because it instantly hit as a prophetic message directly for ME as if he were speaking to me 1:1

It was also strange because I had not received a “prophetic message” before (that I can recall, anyway!) but my spirit instantly knew what it was and that it was for me

And it was from someone (not going to say who so your ego doesn’t click into judgement instead of leaning in to curiosity) that I would NEVER have usually been listening to. (And funnily haven’t listened to since)

Here’s the message:

“Get ready for the people who once hated you to want what you have. There is a reason you couldn’t win them. There is a reason nothing you did could please them. There is a reason they couldn’t accept you.

God meant for you to be alone and lonely and walk by yourself because he never meant for you to become them, he meant for them to become you.

You have finally reached the season that those who once fought you are now going to seek you.

And you’ve got to be healed enough, and feel safe enough to let people in that you’ve been scared of…

.. Because God is going to use you to minister to people who maligned you and you’ve got to know who you are well enough to be ready to receive them.”

Last year, people came back into my world from my past, seeking me out

And it was only through the incredible spiritual GUIDANCE of Jesus in this healing work that I could actually HOLD it and not be triggered to high heaven by it.

This alone is incredible grace.

Because I have experienced three heavy smear campaigns when I wouldn’t bow to toxicity and the fear of man – one familial, one at the ending of my toxic marriage, and one in a Christian church.. and when everything in me screamed to fight back and get revenge..

I got close to God instead.

I trusted him with my reputation

I handed him my broken pieces

I allowed God to do the work on me

And I trusted him to make something beautiful out of them, even if I could not see the HOW.

There is an EASE to this that I wouldn’t have if I had tried to manufacture it alone. This ease comes from a supernatural parting of the sea. It comes from one of prayer and surrendering the pieces. It comes from facing off with the pain, the past and the dark corners of my internal world.

It wasn’t that I clung to this WANTING it to come true. I definitely didn’t want to interact with the majority of the people from my past.

It was just a deep knowing in my spirit that it was going to.

And in the same way I knew that, I know this prophesy is going to play out in a huge way in 2025 and I can’t wait to see the radical work God is going to do through this work + this movement!

Breaking generational chains + liberating entire lineage

Women embracing their immeasurable worth & significance

You reclaiming your birthright of Spiritual Wealth & Spiritual Empowerment

And living in your highest purpose and potential

I want to be clear: we are in for a wild ride + little of what you are about to witness this year is because I am good (though I am magical and amazing and totally own it) but simply because HE is.

This is a restoration kinda year..

And I’m here for it.

LS x

I don’t pray you get to go to heaven, or avoid hell.

Here’s what I do pray:

I pray Jesus reveals Himself to you fully.

I pray that your eyes will open to see Him for who He is, not who you were taught He is, or who you desire Him to be, so you can experience the freedom of knowing Him authentically, as He truly is and live life to the full with Him. 

I pray that your whole being feels and knows just how GOOD He is, so that you deeply KNOW and FEEL and TRUST Him with the deepest parts of your soul.

I pray that you can absorb just how much He loves you so you never again feel the need to strive, prove, or chase after love—it has always been yours, in abundance, without condition.

I pray that because of this revelation, you will choose a life with Him because His presence has become your everything and your purpose is rooted in His truth.

I pray that your entire being feels the full weight of your worth to Him, and you finally see yourself through His eyes—radiant, chosen, and invaluable; walking confidently in the uniqueness of who He created you to be.

I pray you know and feel just how significant you are, so that you no longer shrink, hide, or silence yourself, but instead stand tall in the uniqueness He designed in you.

I pray that you know how much He delights in you! And seeing yourself as he sees you so you embrace yourself fully, imperfections and all, knowing that you are His joy and masterpiece.

I pray that you know how SAFE and beautiful surrender is to Him so you feel safe to let go of control, step into the unknown, and trust that His plans for you are infinitely better than your own.

I pray you receive a revelation that He truly is all you need, so that in knowing Him, listening to Him, being with Him, you are set free from anything or anyone that desires to have power over you.

And I pray your soul finds perfect peace and rest in His embrace. A peace so incredible that you cannot imagine ever living a day of this life or the next without His presence. 

LS x

When we have grown up learning God through the lens of wounded men, we have to be careful that we don’t relearn God through the lens of wounded women.

The lens of wounded women is the most attractive lens to us after we have had our spiritual awakening/faith crisis.

It’s the one most relatable.

And the one most poisonous.

Because while she sells freedom, yet she simply traps us into another paradigm – one where we block our own freedom, restoration and soul-nourishing connection to God.

And where we continue to pass on our own wounds.