One of the biggest things I worked on in therapy through many smear campaigns was learning to trust God with my reputation.
Many years later the fruits of that have shown over and over again.
People circling back and apologising for believing what was said about me
And others apologising for perpetuating it.
People from the past following and benefiting from my work now – because, let’s face it – they are STILL stuck back where I was..
In man-made religious doctrine, silencing of women and controlling leaders.
Not only that, but instead of needing them to apologise, or for me to be vindicated in some grand public way to be able to move forward in life..
I have been free this whole time.
Let that sink in.
Some of these smear campaigns are over a decade old.
Instead of spending my energy fighting it (energy you most certainly will not get back, and will burn out doing so).
Instead of trying to get revenge
Instead of trying to get people to see the truth..
I chose to do the work to learn to trust God with my reputation..
Even when every fibre of my being was crying out over the injustice
Even when the anger still burned bright in my chest
And I was reeling from all of the effects and consequences of what had happened.
And yes – even when I could not see how God could change it
When it felt like darkness surrounded me
When I was standing – alone (in the natural)
When if seemed there was no light at the end of the tunnel..
It was all stepping me to freedom.
Freedom from the control (because smear campaigns never come out of healthy environments)
Freedom from the fear of what others think of me which has liberated me to lead in a way most are not capable of
And a freedom to let go and ttust God instead of carrying it all.. striving.. fighting and burning out.
I took the smallest measure of faith – all that I could muster – and placed it in The One who told me he loved me, who delighted in me, whose throne sits on a foundation of justice.
And then I chose to spend my energy on me:
Recalibrating to truth, realigning my identity, rebuilding my newly aligned life.
Allowing God into the spaces that mattered to me most
Allowing him to carry what I couldn’t, and knew I didn’t want to.
Friend,
You don’t NEED them to understand you
You don’t NEED to correct everythjng and make it right
You don’t even need ONE other person to see through everything and believe you and “get it” (though I know it’s nice!!!)
You need to let go, and focus on YOU.
You need to onboard guidance that will keep you focused on who you are born to be – not who they say you are.
You will never regret taking the high road with God.
He is the God of resurrection, restoration and you can trust
It might not be how you want
Or when you want
But he’s got it.
It’s time to focus on you.
Recalibrate to the truth of who you were designed to be – and not who they said you are.
Leave those that would choose to believe the worst .. for truth will catch up with them eventually and by then you will have severed the attachment, and need for their approval anyway
(Which serves you as a leader as a super power 
)
When you do – they will become so irrelevant to your life and future
And you will be whole, focused and free..
Making the wild levels of impact you were born for.
LS x
